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11 January 2009 @ 02:34 pm
Well since the last post, things have taken another turn for the worse... I got laid off, or rather 'fired', since my employer decided to make up a shtty excuse for letting me go rather than just call a spade a spade... In the end, I know he's just trying to protect his assets, since he can't afford me filing for unemployment on the grounds of an illegal termination... and since he's a former lawyer, I suppose that means he's already got it figured out how he'll defend his case in court if I took it there, so I'm kinda in the shit, especially with the eviction looming only a couple weeks away.

Anyway... the search for a new job has not gone well... there's simply nobody hiring in my field, and even the lesser-paying jobs that can't meet cost of living are taken by highschoolers these days. The most common thing I've been called when asking for an interview is 'overqualified'. The fact of the matter is that nobody wants to pay anyone enough to make a living, and they know that I'll ask it, if not up front, down the road....

I have basically two options open to me now... take out more loans, and go deeper into debt, to go back to college, in the perhaps false hopes that another 2 years will get me a job that can pay it all off in the end, or join the military.

I'm going to MCTC Tomorrow (Monday) to see if the loans might be manageable after cost of living this term, and for the next 2 years... though after the failure at USF, and being forced to drop out of all my classes without refund at no fault of my own, while being stuck in a $900/mo rent contract with the college, and all of it tallying up at a >10% interest rate, I'm not sure I'm willing to bend over for the educational system again.

On Tuesday I go to the army recruiter's... I may sign. If I do, you probably won't see much of me for 4 years or more. In my present condition, it will be hell... but in the end, it will help me get the education I need, give me a place to live, pay off my debt, and possibly whip me into shape well enough to add several years onto my life beyond what I devote to it.

I can't go on like I have been, anyway... there's nobody for me here, and losing my job now dashed any hopes of moving somewhere near friends. The army is a long commitment, and I will hate the separation it brings, and while I welcome much of the change it will bring in my life, I don't know what else it will do to me, or if I will like who I will become... but it may be my only real option, and when it comes down to it, I'm willing to serve my country in that way.
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